Thursday, July 31, 2008
I have read some recent posts such as this and this that really make me think and look at how I am living and even more important, how I look at raising my children. I have to say that before we decided to have kids, I thought that I knew everything since I had babysat and worked in nurseries for 15 years. I have had to discipline, teach, and take care of the basic needs of children of all ages. I have seen children that needed more discipline, less discipline, and different discipline and I was the first to tell you my opinion (wanted or not). I really thought that I knew more than some of my friends that are moms and that I would have no problem raising a kid without being "that mom" (you know the one that always takes their kid to the doctor when they sneeze or the one whose child throws fits in the grocery isle).
I am not good at asking for help and I hate looking stupid in front of anyone! Because of this, I read as many parenting books, websites, and magazines as I could get my hands on just in case there were things that I didn't know before having Hannah! I really felt like I was prepared for anything! Then I had her...
Motherhood is the most wonderful, exciting, and rewarding job that I have ever had. Period. I wouldn't trade it for all the money in the world. However, I never knew how much I would second guess every single decision that I make. I worry am I not feeding her enough, or too much; am I feeding her the right things in the right order (because every book has a different opinion and who is to say which one is the right one!); is the choice to let her sleep in the swing this once going to mess up her sleeping pattern for the rest of her life; am I setting the example for her that God would have me to; etc. I have to say in all of this self-doubt, there is one thing that has helped me- I am not the only one! I have talked to multiple friends and as mothers, we all feel the same way! Friends with older kids say that they are past the basic needs worries and now they second guess their discipline choices, the school they put their kids in, their after school activities, their decision on if they can go to a sleepover or not, and the list goes on and on. The hardest part is that you don't know if you did the right thing until years later. You don't know if they are going to turn out to be happy, well-adjusted adults that make good decisions until they become adults!
Through the last few months I have learned one thing: we all do the best we can with the knowledge that we have at the time. We all have different kids with different personalities and as a mom, you have to decide what is best for your kid. I am slowly learning to accept this and stop comparing myself to other moms and stop comparing Hannah to other kids. It is SO much harder than it sounds, but slowly I am learning to lean on God to fill in the gaps and not beat myself up over the little stuff. I also will never again say, "my child will never do _____" because, you never know and I now know "that mom" is just doing the best she can.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
The whole time they were here (and pretty much since), Hannah had a fascination with sticking her tongue out like this:Most of her pics from this weekend, she is making this same face! She totally cracks me up! I kept telling Carla and Heath that I didn't have any pics of them with Hannah, so on Sunday we took some pics of them with her. We had a great time with them and were glad that they were able to come and see where we live. Carla couldn't get over how cold it is here. She was hoping to go home with a California tan, but where we are, it just really isn't warm enough for that!My favorite time of every day is bathtime with Hannah. There is just something about wet, happy kids that is just too cute! I should have known that bathtime would be my favorite since it was always my favorite time with Cindi's kids! She is just so cute now that she rolls over in the tub and looks up at me with wet eyelashes and smiles, there is nothing better! She kicks and splashes and has the best time! Heath took these of her while they were here (yes, they resized weird when I copied them)!And, for those of you who don't know, I finally caved and got "the mom haircut"! I had been debating it for a while and just decided to go for it! I kept saying that I wasn't going to be one of those people that cut all my hair while I was pregnant, and then I decided I wasn't going to do it right after I had her, but finally, now that she is not napping as much and she is pulling my hair, I caved! I am excited about how much faster I can fix it and how much less she has pulled my hair since cutting it, but I am still trying to get used to having so much less hair! I also have realized, I am not as good as Kristen at self portraits!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Last week we started Hannah on cereal! She had a hard time at first figuring out how to move the food to the back of her mouth instead of spitting it out, but she is getting better now. She still makes a mess, but not as bad as this first time! Hannah loves bathtime! Every night she gets in there and just kicks and splashes and has a great time! I wanted some pictures, and Michael wanted them G-Rated, so he tried to keep her covered with a washcloth. I guess one day she will appreciate that her Daddy wanted her modest, even at five months! I also realized that I never posted the link to our family pictures that we took for Mother's Day. They are on JC Penny Smiles by Wire, so you will need to click this link https://www.smilesbywire.com/home.asp?AC=LTPP0258105716JCP
and enter my name Kim Wallace in the customer name box. Then you should be able to hit "click here" and view the pics. They intentionally keep them blurry so you can't copy and paste them and print your own, but at least you can see them. Also, I took her today for her six month pictures and will post the link on them when I get it as well! I am hoping to post pics of our time with the Goleman's later this week, so be sure to check back!
Ok, so you have no idea how exciting it was for me to find out that I can now post video! I have tried multiple times before and it has never worked, so I was shocked and thrilled to know that now I can post video of Hannah. She has so many "new tricks" that I have wanted to share, so I have been catching short videos during the week. The first is a video of her laughing (granted the lighting is terrible, but I didn't have time to turn on a light or open a window because I didn't want to miss it) and it is my favorite!